dream 012 (even though i've had a million i haven't documented)

i was going to the thornapple area and was by the golf course.  it was raining (which i suspect was a relevant part of the dream because i was sleeping in reality with my window open and it was pouring rain outside and i could hear it.)  the street had flooded so i couldn't drive through (i wasn't even in a car, though, but i knew i couldn't drive through it.)  i finally got to where i was going and was hanging out with marlie morgan & stephanie snyder.  stephanie was pregnant and we were at her baby shower.  there were pictures of myself and hello kitty all over the refrigerator, and some with shawna harrington.  shawna's mom came to me and said "recognize the theme!?!"  weird.  i left the shower for a little bit and went over to sarah wendel's house.  she and her mom were playing with a dog that sarah and i shared.  i took a bunch of pictures and polaroids of the dog, then went back to stephanie's baby shower.  i remember seeing stephanie's dad, who was the human version of kyle from south park's dad (and until last night, i had no idea who that character was or what he looked like because i don't watch south park... but my tv was on comedy central in the background and i watched the new episode which was a parody of the election and kyle's dad was a rabid obama supporter...haha..)  while at the shower, i was suddenly pregnant.  it was agreed that when i had the baby, abbey and i had to share it.  i didn't go through any kind of birthing, but the baby came to be, and abbey kept trying to take it away from me and not let me anywhere near it.  i was too busy trying to figure out how to work abbey's camera (which was a canon powershot sd1100 ... and of course i have dreams in which the electronics are distinctly identifiable because i sell cameras for a living, haha) .. she took my baby away and also grabbed the camera out of my hands because she wanted everything to herself.  i was furious.

at one point during the dream, i was in a house that was set up like my across-the-street neighbors' from childhood.  the front door lead immediately downstairs or up.  i don't know who's house it was or why i was there or who any of the people there were.  an old light-skinned black woman came to the front door to pick up something she had ordered.  i don't know what she had ordered, but i wondered why the owner of the house had made whatever it was and allowed people to come pick it up instead of delivering it to them.  the woman had a really ugly, stupid dog with her and it kept biting me.  when it bit me, it's mouth suctioned to my leg - and this is a gross description, i know, but in the dream it was the visual i kept getting - much the way a vagina suctions a penis inward.  i tried to kick the dog off of me but it kept sucking and biting me!

dream 009

i was at a restaurant with lots of friends. we were there for a rap show. we were in the waiting area, waiting to be seated. also in the waiting area was a girl i remember from middle school. her boyfriend was cradling her in his arms and she was convulsing and bleeding profusely from her arms. we were all kind of grossed out, so we left the waiting area and went outside. i was topless. i don't know why. but i was hot and had perky boobs and no one thought that it was especially weird that i was topless, they were all just giving me lots of attention. people were running around like hoodlums, drinking, popping pills, etc.

while we were all waiting for the show to begin, i noticed that there was a trailer with a small group of people gathered around it on the other side of the parking lot. i ran over and called to jenna to come with me. it was ryan adams' trailer. he was talking to a few people, but i interrupted them all and started talking to him. he talked to me, and wasn't even bothered, the way i feel most musicians and celebrities are when they are bombarded in public. i mentioned that i had read his myspace bulletin the other day about how it pissed him off when fans came up to him and had nothing to say and nothing to talk about. he laughed and said he was glad that i'd read it. we talked about random stuff and i said, "i need a picture of us together, or this never happened." i mean, i needed proof! so he sat down inside his trailer and i was like, "does that mean i can come in? because i can't be in a picture with you if you're in there." he invited me in. we took lots of pictures. i followed him into the bathroom. we made out. we left the bathroom and he laid on the floor. i bent over him and he fondled me. he got out a dildo and started ..doing things with it. then we had sex. i remembered that jenna was in the room, and i stopped him. we took more pictures and i told him he looked cute. he took jenna's camera and started taking pictures of me. he said, "you look cute, too. i like you a lot." jenna pulled me aside and said, "i like taking pictures, kate, and i don't mind, but i don't want to watch you guys have sex." i felt bad.

ryan and i went back to my house, and we loved eachother.